a quick note..

Yeah 1 week down of radiation!! Just 5 more to go!! So far i am feeling good. Just taking it day to day. On Wednesday i had a brain Mri and update with Dr. Duma. As we looked at the images we noticed a change. There is either swelling in my brain or scare tissue from my radiation i had almost 4 years ago. He is not worried about it at all. I on the other hand is wondering how this is popping up now. He said it is normal to get this after a year of brain radiation and gamma knife. Yet it has been almost 4 years for me so he thinks i am lucky. Also he feels that since i started chemo and now radiation for my lung it may have caused this to happen since my system is not normal to heal. We are gonna check up on this brain in 3 months. Though if i start getting slurred speech and other symptoms then ill get one earlier. That is fine with me. I am very happy that there is not another tumor in my brain!!! So all my worries are gone. I believe i am and always will be fine! Stupid silly cancer trying to mess with me haha. I dont think so!! Thanks all for everything! ill update you soon.

It is moday..

Today was 2 out of 31 times of radiation. So far it is going well. I had more anxiety last week then i do now. I just have to take it day to day. Today i did get to see my nurse. We went over alot today and i am not looking forward to all of the side effects, if it happens that is. They are radiating my whole upper left chest, from the bottom of my left breast to the bottom of the neck and it is from the left side to the middle where the esophagus is. That is alot so there are many different things that could happen. First is that i may have problems swallowing since my esophagus is getting zapped,fatigue for sure possibly after 2 weeks, shortness of breath, and sun burned chest. Hmmmm i dont know if all this will happen to me but they had to discuss it with me. Then i know i cant lay out in the sun..Boo hoo to that. Though i know there are many other sunny days when this is over. i just need to have patience and just concentrate of killing this stupid cancer! I will let you all know how every goes almost daily. Thanks for all your support!! Believe

pic if from anguilla 2006...

Just a thought

So today is my first radiation treatment. I went in yesterday to get more pictures and for some reason had a bad time. Not only did i find out the only time slot they had open was 730p.m and then they said i cant lay out! I was upset and cried.. I am thinking that i had more than that to cry about and something triggered me to do so. Once again i reminded myself there is plenty of sunshine through out the year that i can soak myself with and also they may adjust my time slot once something opens up. Haha i was an emotional wreck. I learned that it is ok just to do cry and be upset here and there. Though this time around has been too often. Maybe emotionally i have had enough but still able to kick this cancers butt! This menopausal thing i am going through too is not helping either with the moods. Haha now i know how my mom feels.. I'm going in today knowing this is going to go by fast and that is killing this cancer! Just another new experience and excitement! Thanks all for supporting me!!! Believe!!!!!!!!!

Plans are set..

Went to see my radiation doctor, Dr. Chen, today to start the radiation process. We discussed that i will be doing 31 sessions of radiation. Which ends up to be 6 weeks and 1 day since i will be going in Monday through Friday. Today i was scanned,marked up and i go back in on Thursday to get my tattoos. Then on Friday i start number 1 out of 31! So happy to get this started! Something new and exciting right. I am a little anxious to see how if any side effects will effect my daily life. I know i should live day to day but it is always in the back of my mind. I did mention this to my doctor and with laughter he said you have had your brain and pelvic area radiated and you are anxious about this. Yeah i felt stupid haha! After this appointment i went and saw Dr. Mahdavi to get some blood work and discuss what to do during radiation. My counts were good so i do not have to get any more shots thank goodness! During radiation i need to get my blood taken once a week and see the doctor once a month. Not too bad i say!All of this is a full time job to me. I will update more as the radiation starts to let you all know how i am feeling and my thoughts of course. Thanks again for your support! Believe!

Hives..

At the hospital i did the same routine. I finish my chemo and then the blood levels drop and i get my shots and blood transfusions. As weak as i was, i always get excited to know i am receiving blood. It makes me feel like a new person in hours. Amazing i tell ya! For the first time ever i broke out into hives while receiving my first unit out of 2 units of blood. It scared me at first but after i was given benedryl in the vein not only did the hives go away, it knocked me straight to sleep. Then as i woke up i could already feel some energy once again. My white blood count kept on dropping lower and lower each day even with the shots that i have received. I think my body is just overwhelmed with being poisoned so much. Though today which is Friday i was excited to see my counts went up and tiny bit. I convinced Dr. Mahdavi, my fabulous doctor, to send me home and promised that i would be a good girl this weekend by staying in. I do have to go to the day hospital on Saturday and Sunday to get shots for my white blood cells. This is my chance to get outside around people since it is dangerous to be out with low counts but i am putting myself on house arrest till i get checked on Monday. Also on Monday i have an apportionment with radiation to start things up. I see the doctor and also they start the markings for the radiation. I will find out too when i start the actual radiation and how long it will be for. I am very happy and excited how fast all this is going. One thing after the other. I am staying strong and positive! Just kicking this stupid cancer butt! also thank you all again for your support! Also a big Thanks to the Warfest benefit for donating money to me by sponsors; Blue Ice Vodka, One Hope Wine and Fccancerfoundation.com !!! You guys are all amazing! Everyone should check out that site!!! Believe!

Round 4 Is Done!

I finished my last bag of chemo for round four of what I think will be a total of six rounds of chemo. I'm feeling pretty good! I have been having some tummy aches but I am hanging in there. My hair is still growing like crazy but I am guessing I will have it for a week or two before it all falls out again. My friends already have pland to shave designs into my hair :)! I am hoping to get out of the hospital by Tuesday and follow up with outpatient visits. In three weeks, I will start radiation and that will last for six weeks. After that we will see whats up. Thanks for all the support!

Check out FCCancerfoundation.com!!